life...unfair

This has been a very trying week for me. I am trying to undo the mistakes that I have made but i can't seem to find the strength or wisdom ..I cannot talk to anyone about it at all. I am at the "jalan buntu". So difficult this journey. I don't know how I ended up here on this path.

Courage, where are you?

My dear friends, mr sensible and ms wisdom...where are you?

I am happy...and yet a part of me is torn. This is really hard. I need to do something, I cannot compromise. That's what I need to do. I hate myself for this..

Dear God, I am trying. Sorry for letting You down........